I slept well last night. In sheepish preparation, I installed a string of mini white lights around my window. It must've brought me a subconscious comfort, since I ended up sleeping soundly until my alarm clock rang. Still, this has got to stop. What am I so afraid of, anyway? At work I have this strange reputation of being bold and fearless, in my boss' own words. "Typical Leo," she always says. If only she could see me in my pyjamas at night, tossing and turning nervously. Still, I'm determined to face this stupid fear of mine and get rid of it as soon as possible. My usual common sense is begging me to find logic again.

I met a couple who are part of the Canadian music scene at the Green Room in Toronto the other day. I was having a gin and tonic with my sister's roommate, and she ran out of smokes. She wanted more so I offered to bum one from the people sitting next to us: "Hi, sorry - could I bum a smoke from one of you?" Big sheepish smile and a self-conscious tuck of hair behind my ear. A woman turned around and looked right into my eyes in a way that I found startling. "Wait. I've seen your face before," I heard myself saying. Turns out that she was Lily Frost, and the man sitting next to her is José, the front man for By Divine Right. Now admittedly I'm not extremely aquainted with their albums, but I know of them. They were accompanied by another couple, also musicians. We spent the next hour talking about music, food, marriage and babies, etc. It was a pleasant conversation and Jenny and I couldn't believe how happy Lily and José seemed together; it was as though a magic dust had settled around them. Oddly, I ran into them the following morning in Kensington Market, and we exchanged phone numbers and e-mail. I love getting to know new people, so it was nice to create a connection while out of town. It will be interesting to check out Lily's show at the Blacksheep Inn next month in Wakefield. I promised her I would come, if only to return the cigarette I bummed from the table. If you're curious, check out their web sites: www.lilyfrost.com, and www.bydivineright.com. Lisa, I think you'll really like Lily's stuff in particular.

Speaking of Lisa, she is arriving in less than a week! I'll be organizing a gathering or pot-luck of some sorts in the next week or two to celebrate her arrival and upcoming wedding, and will post the details here soon.

I called Maggie this morning before leaving. I missed her and wanted to leave a good-morning message on her voice-mail at work. I think people don't call one another often enough in the morning.

I walked through Major's Hill Park, among the brightly coloured flower beds of coral, white and red and the empty park penches. I glanced up at the Peace Tower as the chimes rang.

I am missing someone very much these days.

hey where'd you go?
I remember when all our plans were to meet at home
where'd you go?
where'd you go?